Song 12: inginku

Tak ku percaya

Tak ku duga

Semua datang begitu saja
Ku pun bertanya

Dalam dada

Benarkah rasa itu ada


Tak perlu ku menunggu

Lama untuk kepastian itu


Oh ingin ku bicara semua rasa

Ada cinta antara kita berdua

Yakin ada kesempatan untuk

Jalani indahnya dunia

Telah ku rangkai kata-kata

Untuk nyatakan

Oh dengarkan kasihku

Ku ingin kau tahu

Isi hatiku

plan of my future honeymoon (?) haha

lagi pengen nulis tentang rencana bulan madu, jangankan mau nikah yak punya pacar aja gak -___-
tapi gak ada salahnya kan buat berencana hoho


coba tebak gue mau kemana haha
NO, not Paris .
gue emang pengen kesana, tapi ga bulan madu juga .
kapan-kapan kalo punya duit banyak haha

jadiiiiii...
impian gue adalah..
yak bener banget LAUT !
jadi laut mana yang menjadi pilihan ?
ada dua sih haha *mulai maruk

maksudnya ada dua pilihan .
naik tiger blue dengan rute pulau komodo-flores-banda daaaan raja ampat .
kedua, ke Maldives island !

berlayar naik tiger blue beberapa hari sama suami, menikmati laut dan langit .
dan, siapa sih yang gak mau ke Maldives island ?
surganya dunia pencinta laut kaya gue .
dan menikmatinya sama suami *eaaa
can you imagine ? aaaahh, i hope its not just my fucking dream .

aamin.

About dafuq feeling

I'm done .
Just tired of to be the only one to worry .
Worry about us .
And, let it flow .

Song 11: wonderwall <3

Today is gonna be the day
That they're gonna throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you gotta do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do, about you now

Back beat, the word was on the street
That the fire in your heart is out
I'm sure you've heard it all before
But you never really had a doubt
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do about you now

And all the roads we have to walk are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
There are many things that I
Would like to say to you but I don't know how

Because maybe, you're gonna be the one that saves me
And after all, you're my wonderwall ~

This is how i feel .

Girls aren't going to talk to you first . It's a girl thing .
We don't like to starting conversation because we like to feel you want to talk to us .
We like to feel like the wait was worth something .
We like feeling like you've waited for us like we've waited for you .
But the number one reason we hate talking first because we hate to seem needy or clingy .
That's why we're scared . Cause to us, being needy and obsessive just pushes guys away .
And no girl wants that .

I lie, and you know very well i'm a bad liar .

I'm fine .

Karna ketika aku merasa
Aku tidak baik-baik saja
Aku akan menulis banyak
Tentang perasaan yang tak bisa aku kontrol
Tentang perasaan yang tak bisa aku ungkapkan

But today, i'm fine .
Everything gonna be okay, right ?
Somehow .

Empty .

Aku tak menyukai keramaian .
Tapi aku benci sepi .

Dan bersama kamu,
Tak pernah ramai tak pernah sepi .
Tapi damai .

Dan saat kamu menghilang
Ramai terasa sepi .
Hampa .

Mengertilah maknanya .

Mungkin aku butuh mandi (lagi)
Membiarkan dingin menusuk tulang
Membiarkan rasa sakit ini hilang .

Atau, mungkin aku butuh tidur .
Aku butuh beberapa pil .
Agar larut dalam mimpi .

Mungkin juga tidak .
Aku tak butuh semuanya .
Aku hanya butuh satu .
Kamu .

Aku butuh kamu .

Memikirkan .
Meresahkan .
Merindukan .
Perasaan-perasaan yang bergelut .
Aku butuh laut .

Aku ingin sekali menulis ini .

Aku ingin menulis surat .
Yang berisi bahwa aku merindukanmu .
Merindukan kita .
Menghabiskan waktu diujung telpon .
Atau hanya sekedar bertukar kabar .
Tapi aku takut .
Takut suratku hanya terkurung dalam kotak suratmu .
Yang sengaja tak kau jamah .

Setengah mati .

Katanya, seseorang bisa mati karna kelaparan .
Aku bahkan tidak bisa membayangkan bagaimana dia bisa menahan rasa lapar yang begitu sangat .
Pasti sangat menyiksa .
Lalu, apakah sama rasanya jika menahan rasa-rasa lain ?
Rasa rindu mungkin .
Apakah, aku bisa mati karna menahan rasa rindu ?
Tentu saja tidak .
Aku hanya akan mati karna rasa resah .
Meresahkan mu yang tanpa kabar .
Klise .
Memang .
Mungkin, batinku saja yang tersiksa .
Setengah mati .
Hampir mati .

Song 10: i just want you

There's something I gotta say to you
But I'm so afraid of what you'll do

I'll just admit this to you now
That I'm stuck on you like glue somehow

Don't wanna feel so cold inside
I wanna feel the warm that I feel with you all the time

Surrounding me just like the wind
'Cause you're the one who makes me sing

Help me find myself like how I found you
I need you so we can live happily too
I just want you

I wanna go out with you tonight
A picnic with candlelight
I might just hold you tight

Tell me you wanna be my king
If not it's okay a prince seems just my type I promise I'll be there tonight
I'll keep you warm in winter's white
And in the summer walks on beach sound nice
I want you now to talk with on the phone for hours at a time
Baby I just want you to be mine all mine

I wanna be your valentine your christmas wish your pickup line
I wanna be the one who knows about your friends and foes and the tv shows you love
Look above the stars spell out your name with an exclamation point at the end of the day you're the one who makes me say ~